Wednesday, June 06, 2007
damn... i'm like so confused now lah. it sucks. i feel, well, empty. sorta. and i dunno where i'm heading. right now, i feel really really aimless.first things first. dammit lah TerribleOne. played me out. the frame was supposed to be shipped in last month. and just a few days ago, it was only ready to be shipped. so up till now, i'm not even sure if its shipped or not. zzz. fuckk. i need to ride. i want to ride. and there's a upcoming roadshow on the 9th and 10th for Adventure Singapore, the first ever huge extreme sports event in Singapore. the roadshow is to promote the events. and i think i'll be in the demo. and not having a bike to ride sucks. i guess i'll be reverting to my old Haro frame for the moment. and if the T1 does not come in time for the competition and the practice on the 15th and 16th, i think i'll be using that as well. zzz. fancy using that for the comp....
and the next thing is, since i already applied for the job, the guys at Coffee Club might be calling me over any time and i have to go as its my first few days of work. i can't tell them i won't be free as that will give them the impression that i'm like wtf. apply for the job and yet not free? ahhh.. dammit. how how how. what if it clashed with my committments. what if. what if. what if?
and the thing is that i'm strapped for cash. i'm broke, i have debts to be paid and i need to work. and on the other hand, i need to ride. someone tell me what to do. and these few days, i've been sitting around the house like some dumb fool. waiting for Coffee Club to call me and without a bike to ride. what do i do? sleep and stone the whole day away.
fuck. i need a life. its time for me to wake up. someone please slap me awake from my emo self. fuck it.
this is how i'm feeling right now. two-sided in a world of black and white.
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